I'm no where near perfect. I believe too many lies. &; Keep hoping one day I won't be faking a smile.I live by quotes and lyrics that explain exactly what I'm going through. I have my bestfriends,my enemies, my drama and my memories. I'm just me.
Faux sanguinity in a smile.
Greetings and Salutations.
HELLO,im NAZAHAHAHAHAHA. i turned SEVENTEEN on the 26th May. im SHORT and happy with it. CRAZY & NOISY when feeling ecstatic but still a nice girl,alright? will put on a smiling face even if im hurting real bad inside. likes to laugh at every small thing even if its not funny to others. laughter is just my nature and its the best medicine ever. I LOVE COOKIES :D go weak in the knees over gorgeous hair and fair-skinned? HAHAH. which is why im blessed to have a bestfriend who is my twin.she's my laughing partner,nonsense partner,and my other half too. hurt her and i'll make your life miserable. HAHAHA,acting strong. and and,im single and loving it :D
-ACOUSTIC GUITAR! -SHOPPING! -a new handphone and new line!(probably in march) -hoodies -new wallet -pocket dress -new nice smelling perfume -tees,long tees,oversized tees,slogan tees.etc -skirt,jeans,BOTTOMS! -converse high cut sneakers -everlast shoes -earrings -watches,belts,bangles -backpack,sidebag -a bestboyfr? -go star gazing with someone (: -go ice-skating with someone (: -clean my wardrobe. -grow a litttle bit taller. -have a flat tummy. -eat at PASTAMANIA -learn to play the guitar. -write a song. -PHOTOGRAPHY is to be learnt one way or another.
in the weeeee hours just now.at ard 1am? when most ppl are asleep. me,mum and dad are driving off to Changi hospital.
my grandma's elder sister was warded. so yeah. and my grandma called saying tht her sister was having breathing difficulties.
so,being paranoid,i wanted to go see her. mum too. so dad had to drag himself out of the house and drove us to the hospital. thanks dad :D
im not directly her grandchild and mum is not directly her daughter. but we were the only ones visiting her. she has like sooooo many cucus and inlaws and sons and daughters. and there were none accompanying her through the night. none.
what if smth bad had happened. there's no one except for the nurses. its just so.... sheesshhh lah.
idk why. i feel more closer to her than my own grandmother. seeing her there,alone. it just makes me really sad.
how i soooooo ssoooooo wish i stayed near. but i lived at the other side. its tooo far for me visit her tht often.
i wanted to stay longer just now but dad had to work in the morning and didnt want me to stay at the hospital alone. hai.
im just praying that things will turn out well and good. amin.
'nazaha terima kasih kerana pisahkan _____ dan ____'
i dont know anything. i got a msg from an unknown number,saying that. first thing,you got my name wrong. and second,you wrongly accuse me of something i dont even know anything about.
sheesshhh. like what the hell.
then you can ask me nonsense questions? sesuka hati tanyer. -.-
when i deny your nonsense,there you are asking more as if not believing it. serriiioooouuussslllyyy nonsense.
im seriously just pissed off ah.
and i know for you,you were just saying what you felt, honestly. but still, you know how she felt about me. you think she wont do anything if you told her that particular thing? maybe not her.but someone on her behalf? hai.serious ah.
im not gonna hate you or dislike you. its a good thing you cleared things with her.
do think thoroughly before saying out anything. there are consequences yknow.
blogger like what siaaaaa.cnnt upload photos/videos. greeaaaattt. gonna be a lengthy post then.
sooooo,went for ROW in the morning.met adillah at khatib and went to tamp. was late in meeting her cause i wake up late? heh. alarm was sounded at 6.15. but i told myself to give some extra time for me to sleep a lliittllleee bit more. hahah! skali woke up at 7. was supposed to meet her at 7.30 at khatib. like wtf?
i met her at 7.40. surprisingly,i got ready so fast tht i didnt knw i was just 10 mins late frm meeeting her. hahaha.naz best peeerrr.
waited for others at tamp inter. khairi was late -.- when i msged him in the morning,he just went out frm toilet. but the second time i called him, he just went out frm toilet too and was still at home and it was like already nearly 8.30. luuucckkkiillyyy,his hosue was near the inter and he reached quite on time. HAHAHAH
qeu was already at ite simei and ALONE. hahahahaha. so i accompanied her by talking to her otp till i reached ite simei. the school is daaaaammmnnnn nice caaan? HAHAH. im like just waaaahh.
but then my mood was affected looorr. i was supposed to register and all. this girl at the counter said my name wsas not registerd at their database. so i had to go to another block where the unregistered ppl get to register themselves. i went there,there was no counter. the counters there were for the different roles. and i was just P I S S E D. there was like no form of directions. it was just noisy,hot and crowded. i went bck to tht counter again. and then they told me to register at this table. tht was like after i went to the counter many times to check my name again. i qued in line to WRITE down my name on this ppr. i was then told again to check my name but at a different counter. and SKAAALLIII,my name was already inside the database.
that girl didnt knw how to check properly and treated me like a ball. like what the tooooot ah. URGH.
then we had briefing.we didnt clean/deco the houses as expected.we were to be stationed at giant hypermart as different roles.
i got to do shoooopppping for the absentees. hahahah! grocery shopping. hahahah!! kay,tht part was fun. not till i looked at the list. -.- i had to buy a FAN and this ELECTRIC KETTLE WITH DISPENSER. i was like.....idk ah. hahah i had only $150 and the rest was suppeeer long. the things tht were stated by the ppl was kinda expensive stuff. HAHAH. i was having a hard time finding for things tht were cheap? HAHHAHA. and que and wani was kind enough to help me. their list easy siaaaa. only my list had electrical appliances -.- i swear i have nvr gone on a grocery shopping this hard for my mum. but for other ppl,im doing it. baaaiiikkk naaazzz.
i had to cut down on some things and managed not to go over the budget. weeeee i think i was the biggest saver ah. HAHAHAH,tk tahu maluuuu. my trolley was filled to the brim,mainly because of the fan and kettle boxes.and maggi and rice and oil and it was just over by $3.30. hehehe
que was over by $10 and her trolley was like half of mine. HAHAHAAH :p
while waiting for the rest,got this cute girl who was sneakily talking my pics through the trolley. HAHAHA. and theeen... there was smth else. heheehhe. naz,batal puase kau.apeee ni.
cute smart guy with braces :D
went to esplanade to watch siglap sec gammelan performance. THEY WERE AWESOOOMMMEEE :D hahahahah shall upload the videos at facebook but the sound quality is nt tht goood aaah :( if you were there,you would be just mesmerized by the wonderfuuul sounds and the woonddeerrrful faces ;) hahahahha!!!
okay,im tired. goodmornig. and sorry to whoever for the lack of updates.been busy. saaaddd
im having alot alot of emotions inside of me. sometimes i feel like i just let it out. but i know its impossible cause its just is.
well,maybe what you said is true. but that other person wont lie.
we fight too often. this thing wont get far if we continue this way. we said things that may just be said on impulse,not thinking it might have that much impact on the other.
and things happen without warning. it might be just a misunderstanding or whatever. but idk why it hurt tht much. maybe i was just into this thingy. not bothering how it might affect me and those around me.
you said you were too. but it just doesnt feel quite right for now.
maybe i need some time on my own. figure things out properly.
when i see couples out there,getting all lovey dovey. i feel a pang of jealousy in me. like something snapped in me. maybe because i don't have anyone doing those to me and that girl has.
something wishing that i do have a boyfriend. but sadly,i have no boyfriend. still a looooooonnnggg way to go. just seeing the couples,it makes me smile cause idk eh. maybe im seeing myself being the girl, happy with the guy who's just holding her hand or hugging her. i find guys who hug and snuggle their girlfriends by sneaking from behind just like sweet ah. heh
but there are heartbreaks.heartaches.tears. those just suck. really,for a girl ah. hahah. idk tht much guys who cries over a breakup. so yeah.